A reflection piece
I started freaking out about my birthday last year! The dread grew worse as they months got closer into the summer. I read articles, asked friends, grew anxious as the months grew closer. Some days I was sick to my stomach. I kept a journal and tried to document how I felt, trying to get to the bottom of what I was so afraid of, why did the thought of turning 30 scare me so much. And, how exactly do you celebrate your 30th year ? My friends who weren’t sick of me were holding what felt like interventions every week.
In the poetry of life, I found what I needed just few days ahead of my birthday… to get away and reflect. After being so used to doing things with people on my birthday: parties and trips, I opted instead to face my inner thoughts as I approached this milestone. Everything else would have felt like wearing a mask. Leaving me empty and alone when it was over.
I picked a secluded mansion right out in the woods with rooms that looked like they were straight out of my French history books. I used to take pictures of rooms like this in France!! It was everything I needed.
Now that the birthday has come and gone I realized the biggest lesson that not only saw me through but brought me peace and joy was acceptance. But it is a small piece to an unfolding journey and to say I have figured it all out would be skimming through the details. For now, I wanted to share this beautiful space I got to spend my birthday and if you follow me on Instagram you already know I’m somewhere new continuing the celebrations.
