It’s been forever! Honestly, it feels like everything changed for me as a creator three years ago when covid hit. I decided to take an extensive break from creating, one that is evident I never fully came back from. My last fashion week was in October 2021. I sat at a lowly restaurant in New York, sipping a glass of wine, watching cars pass by, missing the show I was supposed to attend and struggling to keep calm about the whole thing. I knew things were different in that very moment. I will travel crosstown even it guarantees me the last 5mns after the show has ended. Flustered, running with a heavy camera swaying around my neck and beating my chest to match the beat in my step as I run through traffic to make the show. Here I was with at least 9mns of show time guaranteed and refusing to move. Life was giving me an opportunity to decide if I still wanted to be a part of this crazy street style photographer world and I responded with new terms. This year in January, I tried to get myself back into creating, but the algorithm agenda on Instagram seemed to change priorities weekly and I found myself forcing to create content I loved and eventually hating the process. Throughout all of this, I’ve allowed myself the opportunity to to take a break and reassess at each turn. I’d rather not create content than create what I don’t care about to stay relevant or to one day be discovered. Discovered? Discovered by whom? and for what? Questions flooded my head, and when I didn’t feel like answering them I took more breaks.
It’s 5:03 AM, 4 days after realizing this website has always been my happy place and promising myself I was going to get back to posting here. I feel relief wash over me as I type across the empty screen, producing content that honors my present. Content that will not chase the latest trend, but is based on my pure love for telling stories. I hope it is not long before we speak again. There’s so much I have to share with you, but more importantly I’m looking forward to seeing how who I’ve become plays out on this platform. Wait, did I tell you I went to Bali last fall?