Opening up about what it’s been like behind the scenes as I get back into publishing on here again
Even though the break has been long, and I can barely remember how to do anything on here anymore, there’s no denying—this is still my happy place! I just got back from New York and I’m trying to flow back into a routine of publishing often. Most of how I would publish or write or even why I would write feels completely forgotten. There’s a constant debate in my head of remembering how I did something and accepting “a new dawn. “
I believe it’s important to not interrupt an evolution, so I give myself a lot of grace with this. Things are not the same—I was picky about the shows I attended in New York, I didn’t know how to edit or satisfied with edits, and last night it took me 2 hours to write a paragraph. I remind myself that this too is okay. It takes a lot to kick ourselves out of old habits, so as awkward and clumsy as everything feels, I am privileged to be gifted the opportunity of change and growth. It not always easy to see it this way.
Sometimes you genuinely question if out of touch means out of love.